Body Dysmorphia, Guilt & Mental Health 🥺

A bit of a tougher week struggling with a battle between body and brain as body dysmorphia rears its ugly head and trying to find some balance ❤️

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00:00 Vlog recap
00:40 Family, weekly plans and podcast recs
10:36 Sports massages and climbing plans
13:47 Cooking dinner and supplements
19:41 Imposter syndrome, guilt and overwhelm
26:22 Body dysmorphia and identity crisis
31:58 Starting to feel better
37:07 How therapy changed my life and outro

Lucy ❤️ x

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  1. @ranjanagundumane5949 on October 9, 2023 at 3:55 pm

    Dear Lucy, you’ve no idea how much you inspire me. Your videos motivate me to be kind to myself, be realistic and get going. You are awesome. Thank you so much for everything you do. Lots of love ❤ India

  2. @danielawieland9821 on October 9, 2023 at 5:03 pm

    Thank you very much for being so refreshingly honest and share not just the good times but also when you go through a rough patch. I’m very sorry to see that you’re feeling bad and I’m extremely glad that you cheered up again towards the end of the video. Surely the cat helps getting through the tough times. Know that it helps me, and I guess a lot of the other viewers as well, to learn that you too experience (still) these ups and downs. It makes it easier for me to accept them, being at the beginning of my journey. You are a real inspiration. Thanks for letting us in on your emotional path as well as the training and exercising one 🫶🏻

  3. @smithmusicstudies on October 9, 2023 at 5:58 pm

    Doing the next thing is never easy and it is a rarely an immediate fix. But it is the only way to move out of a funk. Way to be patient and keep caring for yourself.

    I think when it comes to others perceptions, some good questions to ask yourself are, “When I see myself as “how I’ve always been-overweight and not active” is that who I have always been since I have outgrown that description? What ways am I the same and how have I changed? What type of responses lead me to think others perceive me differently? Do these comments make me feel bad or good? Am I afraid of accepting that others have a positive perception of me? Or is there something negative to that perception that bothers me (i.e. maybe you feel they would not have had a good perception of you if they met you before you lost weight or became active and this bothers you because you see yourself as the same or you feel you will only be valued as long as you maintain your fitness?

    Just some framing for that internal dialog. Hope it helps. You’re doing great, not just in fitness, but in being true to growing and knowing who you are.

  4. @sandrafeliciano9105 on October 9, 2023 at 7:32 pm

    Dear Lucy, for the record: I am 54 and have that kind of relationship with my mom. And I find it very healthy – and lovely.

  5. @lisakusmin5337 on October 9, 2023 at 9:34 pm

    Hey Lucy, thank you for sharing your struggles and trusting us with them. I hope it gets better, we’re here for you. sending you lots of love. <3

  6. @IndianaHannah on October 9, 2023 at 10:43 pm

    Thanks for the vlog Lucy. You inspire me to keep having fun with my daily movement❤. Keep up the great work.

  7. @danielleward5395 on October 10, 2023 at 2:39 am

    Thank you so much Lucy for a wonderfully authentic vlog💜 I’ve been following your channel for years now and really admire your growth and the knowledge you’ve shared! Have you read The Big Leap by Gay Hendricks? The book talks about blockers we face when we are levelling up our life. I really recommend it. Also have you considered asking your Australian psychologist if they could do Zoom calls? I hope you are feeling better😘

  8. @eeveum on October 10, 2023 at 6:47 am

    Bless you Lucy. I really hope you feel better soon ❤ I dont think you understand how inspiring you are, to your clients and youtube viewers. Please do take time for yourself to relax and take time off work. I have a PT too and she’s very apologetic about having any time off – all humans need down time, i’m sure clients will understand.

  9. @nicolettablankley262 on October 10, 2023 at 9:40 am

    Thank you for being so vulnerable ❤. I know how you feel. You probably won’t even read this but I have a very similar story to you. I had zero interest in fitness, was sedentary and obese. My mum passed away and thats when I decided to lose weight in the name of “health”. I lost alot of weight but I gained Disordered eating behaviours, obsessive exercise habits, body dismorphia, poor sleep and always feeling cold. I also became a PT and felt enormous pressure to keep getting fitter/better along with a huge fear of weight gain. It’s only when something clicked I realised I was actually displaying unhealthy behaviours and have up PT for the sake of my own health. I now have found food freedom and made peace with my body. It makes me sad that we live in a world where we don’t take enough care of our health from within and pay too much attention to aesthetics. “Skinny” is not always healthy or better than other types of bodies. I found my triggers and I now know how to deal with them. Comparison was a huge thing for me…things like your videos used to be an issue where you always seem to be exercising and not eating very much/not sleeping well/always cold. I know myself alot better now. I hope you find yourself and stay well ❤

  10. @weldonsadler3033 on October 10, 2023 at 12:32 pm

    You are beautiful, strong, hardworking, and a inspiration to us all. So embrace how far you have come and how much more you will accomplish in you life.

  11. @seasidefrolics on October 12, 2023 at 12:27 am

    I hope you are feeling better ❤

  12. @unoriginalmelody on October 22, 2023 at 3:04 am

    Lucy, I am sending you hugs from Canada! Unfortunately, bad days happen, but it is to make us appreciate the good ones even more! You are a hard worker and we all look up to you, you deserve everything good that happens to you🎉; when I’m feeling like a potato and don’t have energy to train, I come watch your videos ❤ take time to let your body feel emotions when you feel them, because they can pile up, you are a star ⭐ kisses xx

  13. @bouganvilleasimone on October 24, 2023 at 5:27 pm

    Dear Lucy, i loved this video . 1. I really needed to hear how hard the mental work is and that you’re still dealing with it. You’re a great rolemodel and it helps a lot to hear your struggle. ( I really hope you do feel more confident soon you deserve it)
    2. It was really great to see how you coped with these feelings. ( putting your phone ways, doing things you loved, spending time with people you knew would support you how you needed and taking time to rest)
    Thank you 🤗

  14. @user-tt8yk3ln4i on October 30, 2023 at 4:13 am

    Hi Lucy
    I am so in awe of you posting yr video on psoriasis .
    Thank you so much

  15. @carlaortiz1047 on October 30, 2023 at 10:40 pm

    Você é uma inspiração para mim… me faz sentir vontade de melhorar a cada dia. Você é linda e guerreira. Que Universo te conceda forças e conspire ao seu favor sempre !!!

  16. @hannafox990 on November 5, 2023 at 6:38 am

    I feel exactly the same about the ”seeing yourself as the one you were before after a massive change” conversation. I was always overweight and the non sporty person. Then I had some years of anorexia and now I am at a healthy weight and build muscle at the gym. People who have met me in the past couple of years don’t know who I was but since that was the bigger part of my life, I still see myself at that person. I can literally see a weight loss tips etc and think ”oh yeah that is good” before I realise that I don’t need that anymore. Or if someone says that I am sporty or look good in clothes etc I just think ”what?” Because I still see IDENTIFY as that old person…

  17. @Nurially on November 25, 2023 at 12:32 pm

    Thanks for the reminder that training “intuitively” is okay too. I’ve heard it before from various people and I thought it had sunk in, but I find myself going back to getting influenced by the more “routine is key” philosophy. It has some truth in it, but it invariably wears me down and makes me feel incompetent, undisciplined and like I’m always pressured ans lagging behind or not doing/being enough.

    Be kind to yourself, one step at a time. We don’t always need to smash things and be productive. Simply existing is somtimes enough.

  18. @ashleyjvo on December 17, 2023 at 10:40 pm

    I’m 35, overweight, and also suffer with body image, especially my own image of myself. I have a lot of imposter syndrome myself especially when I did lose a bit of weight and got fit, and that imposter syndrome is part of the reason I ended up regaining weight, thinking I wasn’t worthy of being fit and happy. I couldn’t explain it but that’s what happened, and I’m still battling with my mental demons. Seeing someone who is around my age, has been around the same over weight as me, is female and also into calisthenics has really helped support and motivate me to try again. I’ve been loving your recent vlogs and its genuinely reassuring to know even people in your position still feel this way. In a way it’s nice to know I’m not alone. Please keep up with these vlogs, They’re great! and you’re inspiring me to not only try again but to also vlog my progress and get my thoughts out through videos. Thank you for opening up and being vunerable. I really enjoyed this vlog, it was kind of like enjoying a chat with a close friend.

  19. @L1-14 on December 18, 2023 at 9:36 pm

    Today I put on leggings I haven’t worn in a while. I realised how much weight I had gained this year. So slowly that I never even noticed. I’ve been working out regularly for about three weeks and I feel awful. I skipped a workout yesterday. I barely enjoy the food I used to. When I “cheat” it puts so much pressure on the food. If it doesn’t taste good it feels like a waste of calories. Today’s a hard day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better

  20. @user-kt5nv6fb9z on December 27, 2023 at 1:58 pm

    Hi Lucy, hope you are well. You are 1 in a million! You really inspired me to start training again. The eating habits are a bit challenging but I will get there. We all have our ups and downs. We need to be there for each other in the “trying” times. Take care and God bless. Thank you for being you….

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